Day 109: Letting Go

If my math is correct, I should be on Day 150 right now.  :(  I will keep posting until I get back on track again.  I apologize for taking such a long break.

Last night I went to a painting party.  I am not a very good artist, and I have never painted with real paints on a canvas before.  Even though I was apprehensive about going, I went so my sister wouldn't be alone.  Surprisingly, I had a nice time, and my picture did not turn out as bad as I thought it would be.  That doesn't mean it wasn't perfect though.  I could have spent all night with that paint, trying to fix my mistakes I had made or struggling to make it look closer to my initial intentions for it.  As it was, I probably spent an extra twenty minutes longer than I had to with "finishing touches."  It was an endless cycle though.  No sooner had I tried to fix one mistake then three more had appeared.  I kept trying to fix them until I willed myself to stop and let it go.  I thought I was satisfied with it, but when I brought it home, I still wasn't happy.  I wished I could go back and fix it or had the opportunity to do it over again.  But there came a point where I had to accept that I could no longer change what I had done.  I had to take a deep breath, accept my mistakes, and be happy with what I had accomplished.  It was a learning experience, and hopefully I can apply what I learned into the next painting that I do.