The Prompt: How did Saul feel before David played his harp and drove out the demons?
Some Biblical context: The event mentioned here can be found in 1 Samuel 16: 14-23. Prior to this moment, King Saul had disobeyed God's command and spared King Agag. God then regretted that he had made Saul king and had Samuel anoint David as king. Saul had no knowledge of this. He met David for the first time in this passage.
I feel something is wrong, but I can't tell what it is. Something feels...missing from me. I have no reason to feel this way. I am king! I have the best food, the best clothes, hundreds of men at my command. My people are happy. What is it that I should be worried about?
I feel restless. I want to go somewhere, but I don't know where. I want to do something, but I don't know what. I despise anyone laughing. I despise smiles and seeing any happiness. How dare they be happy when I am not?! But what can make me happy? I try to read about my past victories. I survey my palace grounds. I spend time with my wives and children. Nothing feels right. Nothing fills that emptiness in my soul. That deep, hollow pit in the middle of my stomach that churns my insides so I can't eat anything. That anxious feeling that has descended on my very existence and won't leave me. It's like a mosquito buzzing constantly by my ear.
It's mounting now. Even when I find the most serene spot at the palace, it still follows me. I can't escape it. It haunts me even in my dreams. I dream of falling into darkness. I dream of being killed in battle and my body disgraced. I dream of being destitute. I dream of emptiness.
Can't someone help me?! Can't someone have mercy on me and take away this feeling that has robbed me of every happiness?! I need it to go away!
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