Day 133: Victim of a Two-Timer Part 2

The Prompt: The guy who dumped Lilly is now sitting three rows ahead of her in church.  A pretty blond is sitting next to him and she puts her head on his shoulder.  He dumped Lilly because he said he needed to get closer to God.  Write two stories, one that is full of conflict, the other full of sorrow.

And now for the story full of sorrow.

Right before I was about to get up to leave, Pastor Reynolds announced that it was time for a prayer for the offering.  I couldn't leave now.  Sitting back down, I squeezed my eyes shut.  I tuned out the pastor's prayer for one of my own.

"Please, God, please, find it in Your heart to take this anger from me.  Help me to concentrate on You right now, for You're the most important person to me, and I need to focus on You, especially while I'm in church."

I gave a large sigh after the bucket passed me and determined to stare only at the pulpit, not them.  Pastor Reynolds' warm voice was comforting and forced myself to write down some notes on the sermon.  I heard something drop from a few rows in front and saw Rick picking something up and handing it to her Addison.  He was giving her the smile he used to give me.  I bet an outsider would have thought they had been a couple for years.  They were so comfortable towards each other, and happy.  

Why did Rick have to lie to me like that?  He was so honest and terrific to me before.  Obviously, I was wrong about his character.  What was wrong with me?  Hadn't I shown enough love towards him?  I thought we were happy.  I was.  Is it because I'm not a blond?  Is it because I'm not as thin as a model or can't afford clothes like that, or don't have time to spend making myself look beautiful with all that makeup?

Why did I have to fall in love with him?  Why didn't God save me from the heartache?  Why didn't she like someone else?  Why am I hurt, again?

I willed back the tears that were surfacing and stared straight ahead, half hoping the pastor would see my face and figure out what to say in his sermon to help me.  I needed God more than ever.